On the mend

Finally I can say I am on the mend.

I hate to say that the surgery day was as horrible as I thought it was going to be and then it went to a whole new level. It has been confirmed and documented that i do not do anesthesia very well. I happen to be 1 of the surgical center's more extreme cases in reaction. The good and bad part is I don't remember it.

What I do remember is:

Arriving at surgical center practically falling a part i was such a nervous wreck.

Talked to the Doctor before surgery but was practically hysterical.

Nurse injected liquid Valium up my nose to calm me. burned like hell. more anxiety

Standing at the sink rinsing my mouth, felt like i was going to pass out and nurse said sit down.

next thing was a sharp jab of the iv going into my arm." damn that hurt" I said

then i was at the pharmacy

then at home

The bad part about all of this is apparently I was very nasty and hysterical even after I came to at the doctors but I have no memory of it. They said I was awake and talking when they discharged me but again i have no memory of it.

I do remember it was 10: 10 am just before the Doctor came in to talk before surgery.

The next time i remember actually remember anything it was after 3pm and I was at home.

My receipt says I was at the pharmacy at 1pm.

To me this is all very scary. To not have any clue as to what i did or said yet be fully conscious. Not a good thing.

(Don't worry I had an escort, I wasn't out wandering the city alone. lol)

I was so out of it after ward that i have no clue what they told me afterward so I went in this past Tuesday to talk to them and apologized for what ever it was that I did.

I learned that that I am 1 of just a few extreme cases per year and that they don't hold it against me.

I learned that I was beginning to heal nicely and the Doctor reminded me I'm not as young as I once was and that healing may be slower then expected.

But, of course there is always a but somewhere, I will defiantly have to have at least one bone graft to rebuild my upper jaw. When they were extracting the teeth the bone was just crumbling away and had to remove more to get back to healthy tissue. so some time after the first of the year I will be going in for bone grafts. From what I understand so far, they will take the bone from my ribs.

But in the mean time I have to have some root canals done on what few teeth we were able to save or should I say "trying" to save.

Other wise I wait and heal until I go back for an evaluation in two months.

Thank you for all the well wishes and for all the comments on the freebies. I have read them multiple times over the last week. It sure helps knowing I'm not the only one who has fears of the dentist, and they give me the courage and inspiration to continue. Thank You!

Here is the long awaited freebie

Template #105

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Until next time...